Seems like when one thing changes for the good here comes another that stresses me and the emotional eating comes in again...I so need to get over this problem but its something I've did all my life and may take time to break.  Best part of the week is I got a new bathing suit thanks to my 21 yr old son, thank god for a very supportive family. I was too proud to say yes when he offered to pay for it, but when I was told that this is something I needed to help me, and I didn't have a choice we were going shopping, I went.  SOooo  I thought great, things are looking up, stresses are getting better, then I get some more news.  Lakeland let me know that I am very close to using up the credits for a 2 yr college and my degree, I thought ok, alot of students including myself take filler classes a little to wait for the almost 2 yr waiting list for the nursing program and they agreed with me about that, but now i have to check into other 4 yr schools in the area or move to get close to one so that I can finish my nursing degree. Major stesses for me and here comes the emotional eating again, I have notice that I am recognizing what I'm doing and was grabbing more for salads or other veggies, something that was a little better for me then junk food, but I still did grab a small bag of chips or a some of the vegan chocolate chips I have(those are ok for me, but a tbsp is a snack, I didn't measure them, I just know I ate more then I should have). 

Well tomorrow is a new week and even though I dread the weigh in, it seems i was down 20 lbs before this contest started, then up 4 lbs when it did, was down 6 lbs by the end of the first week after weigh in and right back up.  Sometimes I can't tell if its what i'm eating, how much of it, or my thyroid being off again.  For that I have to wait another month to be seen to check it, but I'm still not giving up on this.  What will be fun is this week I have my twin step-daughters with me...they are 13 and love to walk, exercise and love the pool. So besides challenging me, they are encouraging me too in addition to everyone else. We'll see how this week goes and hope it can only get better.

Sarah

While reading Shelley's blog, i can so relate to her.  I had all these plans to go to the Y for swimming, what I hadn't planned on is how much a bathing suit to be able to do this is. I know there are not many stores for larger women but $118.00 for a suit seems way to much and something that is gonna be hard for me to afford. I also looked online but they are just as much.  This for me is where the emotional eating comes in, i let it get me down and get frustrated because I think i finally have a plan set in place and something happens that might stop it and that bothers me very much.  

I did decide until I can get one that I'll just make sure that I walk or do some kind of exercise for the 45 mins that we would have the class instead of feeling sorry for myself and not doing anything.  Going back to school may help too, since we have the gym there and it is easy to get to, swimming is easier on my body, but I have to do something.  

If anyone has any idea's that helps not to let the emotional eating take control or how to make sure your portions are right, especially if your in a rush, please let me know.  Whether it be websites or phone apps, or replies, any help would be greatly appreciated.  I also have 3 or 4 apps that I used for my phone that I was told about when I was at the Verizon store but have to get the list of them out and will blog them soon.

Take care everyone, 

Sarah

I'm heading in the right direction, i just have to have more patience I guess.  I have a schedule made out for the Y, 4 days of water fitness, 1 day of chair yoga, and 2 days of weights.  I promised myself If i can't go for some reason that I walk at least 30-45 mins instead to get my cardio in.  I've been doing much better packing my lunches for school, and snacks too. If anyone is going to the Painesville Y and wants to get together for any of the same classes I'm doing let me know. The swimming class nice and easy on the body but boy she works you out for those 45 mins.  Everyone there has been so helpful and pleasant no matter when I go. Well I plan on blogging more then what I have, between school and the Y I have not and was letting time get away from me. Spring break is gonna  be soooooo nice.